It was July 2005, almost 12 years ago. She walked into our classroom in high school and she caught my eye, instantly. I’ve heard about love at first sight, even though I didn’t know what it felt like. I’m guessing that was it. I was a very shy boy then. I didn’t have the courage to talk to her. I just stared at her from a far. She was the most beautiful girl I ever saw. She still is.
After six months of sharing a class, sometime around February 2006, I got up the nerve to talk to her, you know… just to spark up a friendship. Boy, was that the most awkward conversation I ever had with anyone. We were in the same class again the next school year and that was good because there were more chances to talk - about anything really, nothing in particular. I never really tried to ask her out, even when I wanted to, I just couldn’t really bring myself to do it.
I remember praying about it. I know it may sound too serious for someone in high school to think that he’s met The One. But God miraculously answered my prayers and I knew right then that I was going to spend the rest of my life with Agnes. That gave me the confidence boost I needed. And later that year, on the 15th of November 2006 to be exact, I asked her to be my very first girlfriend and she said Yes. I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy in my entire life.
I believe that Agnes was picked out by God especially for me. But even with such conviction, our journey was not without tribulations. After high school, I moved to Surabaya for college while she stayed in Makassar. Things were so much harder when we were apart and we gave up our relationship in 2011. Up till now, that was still the darkest moment of my life. I couldn’t move on. I kept trying to get back to her because I still really loved her. And after a year apart, we made it back to each other.
The dynamics of our relationship seem to have changed after the break. We became more mature and more understanding towards each other. There’s this saying, “You only realize the importance of someone after they’re gone” and that hit me hard. That moment, I promised that I will never let her go, whatever it takes. Agnes is my person, my better half. She is the one who gave me endless love and support even when I didn’t deserve it. She stayed with me through ups and downs, she helped me to push through my limits, and she is the one who loves me, just as I am.
She is my first, my last, and my everything. She really is truly the one for me. And I am just the luckiest man alive to be given the privilege to spend the rest of my life with this amazing woman.